friday night lights

I haven't posted a proper post in a while, and its friday night and i am sitting at home eating a turkey sandwich ... so this might be a long'ish one *whoo* ... I've got the headphones listening to a repeat of Pete Tong's show on the BBC radio1 site. Life has been very busy at the minute, but finally starting to feel a bit settled at my new place. I fell down a sit of stairs the other week and bruised my left arm and left butt-cheek (which I think I mentioned in my previous post) ... I am a lot more healed now. I finally registered with a doctor, 3 years into living in London... yes I'm a bit slow on these things. I have been going through some stuff with my brother that has gotten me a bit down lately, and that has served as a bit of reality check about my situation at the minute. I have for the first time as far as I can remember, not been able to just go out without thinking about money (ie I have none!)... things look a bit bleak but there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but I think its a good thing that i'm going through all this stuff, its called growing up, its called life, and how boring would it be if it were easy.

Oh, really enjoying Pete's show tonight, a bit of a darker more techno sound, I guess the uppy house sound was bound to get a bit dull after a while ... thats the other thing, I find when I am going through a dull period in my life, my enjoyment of music is dampened a bit as well. I havent had a really great night of clubbing where I just went out and enjoyed it for what it is for a really long time .. maybe this weekend. I've actually been enjoying watching dvds more lately, must remember to write a review of 21 Grams at some point ....

Ok, thats it for now, not as a comprehensive update as i thought this would, but bear is getting tired and sleepy .... x

Clumsy Bear ... !!!!!!!!!

I can't really blame it on the 3 hours sleep that I got the night before (ok, maybe I should) but I slipped down the stairwell to my flat on Monday morning ... I've got a bruise on my arm and one on my butt-cheek (from the fall people, the fall!). This happened in the morning, and then in the evening I spilled some water onto my kitchen floor that didn't dry up and I again slipped and fell, landing on my ass and using my right hand to soften the landing, and now my wrist is aching as well (insert limp-wrist joke here) ... ouch!

All About The Retrosexuals

BBC Story about new words in the new edition of the Collins Dictionary.

All Good Things....

I have had probably the hardest few days of my life ever this past week. Something major happened that has made me question everything that I'm doing in my life. I am not sure where to go from here really. A part of me wants to disappear out of everyones life, hide forever and not be found, it seems like my whole life has been running away from something rather than towards anything. Another part says it will pass, I need my support and my friends to get through things. For now I will wait and see ...

I wrote this and saved in draft form last week ... I am much better now but figured I should blog the entry because it reflects the way I felt at the time.